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bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
assalammua'laikum..(cewahh)
3.17 am
11 Dec 2010
4 Muharam 1432

Dear,
~~ary ny kan..tekanan jak ow..npa 2 arr??isy...x bek!!3x...msti psl miss slt sbuh jak ny kan blk2,.ahhahaha... byk crta..tp nataw sua apa..aahahhaha..i've lost "ME"..da real me isnt like tis,.i used 2 b fun,,.unsensitive..criaaaaaa ajew..tp skrg,tekanaaaaannnnnn jak..aiyaaa....wats happening 2 me??is it one of da process of growing up??huhh!!

~~td kan..i ask dad 2 buy me choc..he said t dya kc bli..skali tem blk,teda pun..so i said..dady xda bli kan??hahhaha..tuz he said,alarrr.,..dady lpa sggah 7E td..me:jd kmu p mna td?? dad:maybank..d inanam..dady lpa plak mw snggh 7E td.. =.="" ahahahaha...cdey!...1 month suda ny x rsa choc...(ada la jua bha ckit2..ehehhee..)tp ckit jak..

~~ary 2 kan..fiey kan mw asrama knun ma fatiyah..then when i ask mum,dya x bg..then,fiey blk2 mnta..k skrg mum mc pkir,..dya mc mw bncg ma dad..uhuu...when mum said t dya bncg ma dad 2,tuz fiey cam ragu2 jak whether mw asrama or x..ahakz..i totally 4got y i was so eager 2 stay at da hostel..ahahha..not all of them la..cma cam lpa la..tuz cam tkt jak..ahahaha...so i ask la pren2 in fb,,.many of then said hme..sme say hostel..uhuu.,..siap ada debat lae arr..ahahaha..n now,,,after blk2 pkir,i thought,i chose hostel..x jua lma kan..4 1 year onny..jz 4 spm..uhuu...so,i thnk its ok la..but skrg mc tggu parents decision..uhuu...ofcourse,mw call fatiyah dlu..nataw g dya cmna kan..ahakz..myepi tul dya bha...rndu sua ma dya..ary2 engt dya..(sal engt asrama jak ary2 kan..2 arr..)ahhahaha....yana sms pun dya x rep..aq???i cant rmmber whether i dd txt her or not..ehhehee..=p =p =p tp post d fb dya ada la..ehehehe..

i thnk tats all 4 now la..ehekz..nataw g mw karang apa..
k daaa...nyti nyte..
assalammua'laikum..

Fieyra aka Adiq aka Nurul Syafira..
really wanna eat choc..

Mandi!!

Assalammua'laikum..
7 December 2010..
1 Muharam 1432h..(hehehehe...mhormati thn bru Islam bha..ahakz..)
1.01 am..(kali..)

Dear,,,
~~sia td kan..kw tw kan..saiya kan..saya..ermmm..apa suda 2 arr...sayaa...
hehehe..tda la..sa men2 jew..ary ny kan..Fiey p mandi sungai..ekkeke...kmi p LARRY & VINCE'S FARMSTAY...bez!!ada waterfall..buliy stay2 sna jua..i mean tdur sna...smat!kmi p sna p mndi2 jak puwn,.kmi p waterfall kcik..klaw yg bsr pnya jauh g mw jln..msti mw ekt trip dya..ada dlm package..(kali!!) biarpun kcik kan..tp ok la..bez jua..sjuk!!!~ lma2 borynk jua..tp then kmi jmpa activity..ahahha..kmi p tgkp knuk ikan yg ada sna..ahhaha...kmi mkn kropok bha 2..snacks!mmm...yummy! then my mom tah..accidentally tkasi jth kali kropok 2..then ada ikan2 dtg p mkn..ahahha...tuz sna la kmi p kc jatuh2 kropoks..siyok tgk ikan2 2 d tgh2 pelampung..cam akuarium..ahahhaa..skali ada ikan bsr,,ahhaha...karau joe triak..sakit leher..mw lari g ssh abz..tkutz!!ahhaha...then my dad dpt tgkp 1 fish..ahhaha..knuk mw bwa..skali tgk tlepas..aiyakk..rugi btul...then bla once again my dad n i pkai pelampung..i sat on it while my dad gayut sna jak..dya bg mkn ikan..ahaha..knun mw tgkp...skali ada cam kna gigit d blkg dya.,.ahahhahahahahha...LOL!so fnny lorh...
then they tlg me ada udang..ahhaha..tkutz jua la kna gigit cam dad..tp dr sna,i got da idea mw cri udang..ahhaha..bkn mw tgkp tul2 puwn..sja mw main..ahhahaa..mla2 nmpk yg kcik..skali dya lari..ahha..cyan..then nmpk yg bsr ckit...mla2 kcw dya lari...then fiey psg 2 tmpt biskut chipsmore sna..xda jua dya msk..then..i saw it under a rock..fiey engt mw kcw jak pkai kayu..skali tem2 push dya,dpt idea...sblh pgg tmpt biskut 2,sblh kayu..ahahha..when i push him again..dya lari p sblh..so tmasuk la p pat bskut 2..ahahahaa..I GOT IT!!I GOT IT!!! i got a shrimp!ekekeke..(tah btul tah x shrmp 2)..then my mum take a pic of tat shrmp..ahhaa..my dad knuk mw bwa blk..but my mum blg bkn jua bley hdp 2 d akuarium in our hse..gpun dya jak stu..cmna mw tmbh famy dya...wkwkkwk..plus,i felt pity on it..nataw dya tkt ka cdey ka apa..nataw dya ada ank..huhu..so i juz let it go,..cz mmg bkn tujuan asl mw bwa kan..sja jak mw tgkp..ehehhehe...msti dya tkt 2 kan?!eee...felt guilty plak..cyan dya..workers sna plak,ok!!suma frenly...bezsh!!dorg kc tawa fiey cz fiey smpt g p bgambar dkt swing..hahhaa..pdhal mw blk da.."smpt g posing arr" 2 org blg..ahahaha...fnny..he evn send us smpai gate lg..ahahahaa..

~ou ya..td d keta..crta sal yuran skul..mum suh p bli brg awl2..spaya x jua karau bla gna duit nty..sap xkan la suma stu kali mw gna..i mean each day ckit2..law bli truz suma skali,bankrap la kali..ahhahaha...then we talk about hostel..DO I REALLY WANT 2 STAY IN DA HOSTEL?? tis is a verrryyy serious n important decision..gtta make up my mind quick..mmg at frst aq mw tul..tp tah..byk mw pkir..isnt it?mw pkir g,will i stand it lvng in da hostel?wont i b afraid?can i handle myself there?can i really push myself tat hard?wat will happen 2 my parents n famy?can i leave them??will they evn let me go? (=p) wat happens if smthng happen 2 them while im in da hostel?? (na'uzubillahiminzalik) can i stand da pressure?
see..too many questions...smpai bley lpa g apa solan2 2..ahhaha..
mum said nty she discuss wit dad..uhuu..

~ok..taun ny krismas aka ary kuarga..kan salu ary kuarga smbut tem krismas..uhuu...thn ny bwt ny rongolis..tmpt c ally..ehhehe..theme colour 4 likaz famy tis year is green...uhuu..cmana la ny..dorg neth mw bwt bju..i dun know whch..mw bwt ka bli jew..better bli kan..cma i was lke confuse n erm...cam..x syok bha...'gelisah'..ya tats da word..cz kan..cam tis famy day,cam mre lke dorg mw smbut chrstmas..well,i dun really know whether Muslims kan celebrate it or not..coz,,i thnk its ok if we jz join them..i mean,we will onny b gathering,singing,dancing,having presents,eat,n have fun 2gether..there's nthng wrong with tat..we jz dun hve 2 follow them when they went 2 pray at da church rght..uhuu..dun knw la..t i check it frm da intrnt..ehhee..*broken*...

~ystrday was soooo fnny..Adri taught me reading comics..btul la..aiyaaa..ahahha...dya kc bca comic "sora no otoshimoto'..ahaha..kali la..lpa..ehhee..mla2 cam mls la jua..tp cam besz...cma kan,aiyaaa..astaghfirullahalazim..bhya tul comic dya..byk sensored pnya wo..gilerr..i mean bkn blue..aiyaa..2 dangerous thp dewa sua 2 lw blue..evn i dun wnt 2 read it..tp ny cma,bhaya la..hahaahaha..dun know hw 2 xplain..adri blg 'ecchi'..evn i dun know wat tat is..haahaha..
sowt2 ny bha..fnny lar...i read comic,adri watch anime..ahahaha..mla2 ngntuk tul..tp thn jew..skali dya tdur ny bha..cis!! so,i read it jak la..then ttdur dpn laptop..buliy2..ahahhaha..tuz off9 then tdur..ahhaha..bgn puwn lmbt..mizz subuh lg 2..aiyaaa...

~ny lgu stu yg bkin aching ny..byk kali sua i mizz subuh..bgn lmbt jak salu..aiyaa..cannot like tat wo..suda la im a gurl..bad habit ow 2..ahahha..x ley biar ny..then,skul lae 2..ahakz..mslh 2 tw...lw tbiasa,mati la law tem skul..ahahah..,MST CHANGE!!

k arr..t ada story i tell lg k..ehehhehehe...daa...
Assalammua'laikum...

Fieyra...cam snake,.tkupas2 jew..tukar kulit..akibat sunburn..
will write again..if im in da mood..
1.43 am (kali..ekt jam laptop..)

da whisper of my heart...

assalammua'laikum..

12.41 am

05/12/2010

dear blog..

ehekz..xda arr..sja jak intro..

~~k...crta prtama...ttg ksedihan...lg2 ksedihan..2X! xda la laen..ahakz..but tis is my life..so wat?! i still appreciate it..cam lagu d'massive..."syukuri apa yg ada...hdp adalah anugerah.." hahaha...enterframe jap..erm..gne..td i ask mum psl mw msk asrama 2 lg..i ask whether they really gnna buy a hse or not..so she ask y?so i tld her la..law x jd..i wnna stay in da hostel,if i may..jd dya tnya la knp mw hostel..i tld her cam lg bgs d hostel..plus..tiyah mw msk..but xda kwn dya...then tw pa she said..dya blg npa lg mw asrama..result kw 2 kalah lg dgn skul besa..alalarh..cam cdey ny bha truz...i know tat she's still not satisfied wit my result...tats y i kept thnkn bout it..im thankful wit wat i get..evnthough im not satisfied but im stll thankful..but wat mum feels n said makes me feel,like...sort of...sad..or offensed..or dissatisfied..aiyak..cant express it..i tried u know..but i stll rmmber how unconfident i am tat time..felt lke x sdp jak..cam x ley bljr lg..lw bljr pun,x msk kpla..aiyaaaa....tension wo..i want 2 tell my aunt...which is close 2 me..but i cant..i juz cant..cz mum wont let me..she said she dun want people 2 thnk tat she's not a good mther..an unresponsible mther when she oredy tried 2 do her best on taking care of us..

I KNOW TAT!!I KNOW!!she did tried..n i also dun wnt people 2 thnk about her tat way..but i was jz sad n devastated when she talks 2 me tat way n when she talks about my result..it hurts a LOT!i wnna let it out but i jz cant..ARGHH!!!!

----------but now tat i edy let it go..its kinda okay oredy..hehehhe...(if u read tis,dun tell any1 k..n dun thnk about my mum in a ngtive way..she did her best..mayb i misjudge her..aiyow..pls..im bggng u..)

~~k...next stry..sdey lg..ahakz..lke tis bha..1st bddy n clse fren named blablabla,treat me like smekind of trash or smthng..its lke,dorg pakat tuk kc kna fiey..huhuuuu..so sad la td,...truz hlg mud ny bha...tats y tuz write blog..ehekz..=p

++++++ ow ya..lma sua x write blog kan..ehehhe..sury la blog..cam xda mud bha mw mnaip..tp bla cdey ny ada mud plak kan...ahahha..sowt..

~~ok..next story..i did it..i said i wanna cook kan tem cti..yeay!!mmg i wosh dpt msk bbur kcg puwn dr ary 2..so kmarin i did it!!hahahaha..biarpun hangus n ckit x jd,..tp its a success..jd jua bha..ehekz..biarpun bkn new recipe,tp xpa la..asl msk..ehehhe..

~~k..u know..im now working on a handmade frame..ahakz...hopefully jd la as i plan it 2 b..ahaha..mla2 mw bg 2nd bddy..tp bla x dpt pkir wat 2 gve mummy,so i jz make 1 4 mummy as well..ehhehe....mum pnya mw jd da..ckit g..tggl hias n ltak pyangga d blkg dya 2,..hehehe..lma btul ny bha mw bwt.. tangguh jak..ahakz..

~~1 mre..ary 2 i text wit 3rd bddy..ok..shockingly,dya x penah btaw puwn gf dya yg kmi mc bmsg..x ka gila 2??aiyaaa...dangerous wo...then,i said..nmaw la kwn kw suda..ehekz..coz i dun want his gf 2 get jealous and do smthng..i mean,mayb she'll b mad at 3rd buddy n break up with him or smthng..ahakz..tuz 3rd bddy blg..kw pun nmw kwn aq da??k la..aq btaw la dya..ahhaha..funny lorh...i btaw lerr...bkn nmaw kwn..jz nmw cntc coz tkt gf dya mrh..ehhe..i said,i edy promise 2 b his fren no matter wat kan..KMI KAN KAMCENG!!ahahha..2 la yg salu kmi ckp law sma2..ahhaha..bez bhu..his my bestie n im his bestie..wkwkwk...tiyah n yana..dun get jelez..u guys r still my bloved bezfrenz..ehehhe..byk la kmi ckp..but yg pntg..we will stll b fren..ahhaha...4 real..kmi kwn je lorh..x jua mw lbih...ehehhe...

~~aiyaaaa...mc byk story wo..tp lpa da..ahahha..

ouw ya...ary 2 i chat wit cuzzy..wkwkwkk..kmi crta sal alat muzik yg kmi ska..i said i like guitar..love it so mch..evnthough i dun know how 2 play...ahahaha...wnna learn it though..smeday...dya plak..he said he likes piano..ahaha..tis is a tips 4 anybdy who has a crush on him..ahahhaa...HE LIKES PIANO..wkwkwkk...so,frm tat day..kmi blk2 tag lagu yg ada gna instrument yg kmi ska..ahhaha...aq jak actually..dya tem kmi chat 2 jak..aftr tat x sua...ahahahha...tats when i thnk he gets annoyed...ahhahaha..its suit my prof name..--Fieyra aNoying gUrlz--hahahaha..

~~~i jz gotta stop ddnt i?hahaha...ok bha bla org annoyed ma kta..x jua dorg mw kcw kta jak..ahahhaa...jz kddng..

k arr..im done..pnt da..ahaha...(tkt actually)

ahahahaha...k3..

assalammua'laikum...

Fieyra..loves choc..

1.26 am..