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Wednesday, December 29, 2010

mad,..

~bru jak chat ma my EX td...fuhh,,...mmg la kmi fren...tp td dya btul2 cross da line...ley2 dya hina jak fiey...isk!!!man!!!lw fiey pndai ckp kasar ny...adesss...dya ungkit lae knuk sal dlu..pdhal suma dya yg pnya slh..hate him!!!!suka tul mengaibkan org,,gila,,ihhh!!i am very angry rght now..bla engt pa dya ckp td,rsa cam mw sipak dya jak ny bha..adeyh....sowt!!!!
~td fiey mw tmbh chat box..tp xda...cri music player lae...nada jua...adeyh..sbr jak la...
k ar..2 jak...
sja jak mw lpas tension..
tekanan tul fiey td..
selamber jak2 urg p hina2 g2..adeyh..
fieyra...tensed!
1.52 am..
assalammua'laikum..

cdey...again...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Assalammua'laikum..
29 December 2010..
23 Muharram 1432 Hijrah..
10.56 pm...

~tonght..cathy x tdur cney..so,adq tdur ats la..lw x,tdur ma dorg d bwh..huhu....
~mamy mrh kmi bha td...aka fiey n along..adesss...gara2 mw cver fikri aje..adeyhh....sa timbak la dya 2 nty mlm ny lw kdptn..adeyh...bek lae nataw ow...cam berat jak ny rsa bla tw sal ny...aiyer...such a problem..mamy said "kmu urus la 2 sndry"...pnya la SHOCK bla kna ckp g2..aiyer..skit aty xda org tw..cam rsa mw tmbak jak smua org ny bha...adeyh..2nd bddy blg,mumy mnja..tz dya suh sbr jak..segafar dya blg...kik kan..org sbt la bha istighfar btul2..adess...1st bddy plak,blurr2...lmbt tul...mls eyh..cam tsekat2 jak nfas mw btaw..adeyh...
~tp pa jua ley bwt kan..sabar jak la..
~skrg ny,,problm btul..d mna aq mw cri 200 tue??mw bli kasut lg...adesss....fiey mw byr yuran skul sndry thn dpn ny...cz last skul sua kan..so mw byr sndry la...bru puas hti..bru rsa...tp gaji sooo late...lmpas lae tem mdaftar..adeyh...dad sndry pun x ckup duit..dya blg,tuk daftar skul ija stll dpt..tp tk mine,,ssh ckit..aiyyoooo.....such a massive problem..fiey btul2 STRESS psl 2..tertekannnnn btul...
~i burst into tears td pun sal mum mrh 2...tmbh g yg fiey smpan2 sal skul ny..adeyh..
~skuwl x lma g bka..n im not ready yet,..keja rmh lum siap,,,stu bnda pun blum.,.brg skola lum cmplete...especially shoe.. oowwww!!!wat am i gnna do???
~ary 2 25hb,.mkn2 d rmh neth..uhuu...on da evenng,jln g ma tiyah,her bro n her bf..adeyh..her bf drve her mum's car...i really dun like it bla dpt taw dya yg drve..fuhh..cyan dya..ntah la...tz kmi jln2 cri suar..last2 jmpa jua..rm20 each...i bought 2 of them...ok la jua...cma pnjg n FIT!....i jz dun lke tat part..tp xpa la...pa ley bwt..cmna la t bka skuwl arr???sa malu ow mw pkai..adess..
~then tmrrow dya p rongolis...ahhaa...like la..jmpa kzen...bla jmpa c liu,ttriak la plak..gila...ahahaha...eppy jua la...sooo jelez tgk dorg nyanyi d pntas..n dpt hadiah g..aiyerr,,,sooo like la...tp hlg tz smgt bla along said "deq,kalah kw deq.."..=.=!!! pnya la..n wnna know??dorg cuzzy suma bwa Bf n Gf dorg..wouch!!its both gud n bad,..but still,,im jelez..aiyerr...all our granny n granddad pun cam x ksah ny bha..cam besa jak ny..ley tawa g..uhuu...tz gf 1 of my czzy kna jmput p pntas p nyanyi..tuz byk la lawak dorg..pnya lcu,.,.adeyh..one thng i dun like bla ada event mcm 2,is tat byk mnm2..gosh!!sua la ats meja jak tin2 2 kna hdng...2 ley sabar lg la..tp bla sua bahar 2 kna c kuar,,adeyh...cam mw terbang jak ow...suda 2,uncle roy over drunk..dya bwa2 g dad mnm..aiyer,,,im really thrust tat tme....i dun know wat else to do..so i juz said no3x to uncle roy...so dad ckp "naa...dya x suh.."..ahhaha...cyan jua la dady mw tlak..adeyh..tuz uncle talk 2 me,,,aiyer...dun like it when tmpias 2 tkna my face...burh!!!sbar jak la hati...--tettt3....then tem blk,aunty baby suh jga2 dady,,sap dady mnm tdi..kotigup jua la adq bla taw...engtkan dady x mnm..fuhh...
~ok..now..lets talk hostel..td pg i ask mum.,,.mum said tggu dkt2 spm bru msk...im not satisfied wit tat..so fiey p ckp g ma dad..dad ckp,mslhnya dya kering skrg..so,i said nty tgk gaji fiey brp,..lw ckup,then im in..dad said,dya no prob..asl fiey bljr..wohooo!!!!!plg semat la tw...fiey blg,try lu mhon,lw dpt,tgk lae duit ckup ka x...then lw xda apa2 mslh,fiey msk..dad ckp,no prob jak..muahhahahhaah...hope there'll b no problm..i wish..amin...

k arr..tats all 4 now..cam ngntuk...n mls..ehehehe
assalammua'laikum...
Fieyra...aka adeq..(dgr2 jak bnyi len2 ow..adess)
11.46 pm..

Thursday, December 23, 2010

feels like want 2 vomit..

Bismillahirahmanirahim..

Assalammua'laikum...
24 Dec 2010
17 Muharam 1432
11.13 am..

~~~tday kan..rsa mw mntah jak ow..dr smlm g 2..smlm lg la..tkt ny bha..tah..ada smthng la yg kin tkt..suda 2,mw mntah n skit prut..tz bca doa byk2 sblm tdur,,bru la tng.,.dpt jua tdur..n now,skit lae blk..aiyer...x sdp bdn...blg d google translate>>unpleasant body...ahahha..ada ka..adeyh...
~~~tnght,tdur rmh neth,,.,bka present..ermm...tmrrow ada mkn2..nataw g tiyah p ka x..adeyh..
~~~i am sooo worried..1...keja rmh lum siap..n i dun hve mch tme..2..brg skuwl lum bli..i really dun know mw bli apa..n dun hve mch tme too..3...nty tdur rmh nanet,hw mw smbyg..nty p rongolis pun..cmna ny????????hate tis situation...4...bju tuk famy day nty ada sua..tp,oh no!!dun fit mw la...dya tooo tght..nmpk bida la in me..means,skrg i still dun hve bju,..aiyak..mw cri d mna!!!!!helppe..
~~skrg mw cci bju..then make cookies lae...ermm...k daa..

Assalammua'laikum..
Fieyra...stomach ache..hurts soo mch!!!
11.22 am..

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

nataw...

Bismillahirrahmanim..

Assalammua'laikum..
22 December 2010
15 Muharram 1432
2.15 am..

~Ary ny...rabu...eheehehe..x arr...aq nataw pa mw crta..bru abs bwt cookies ny..adeyh..penatz yaw...smpai ttdur aq..muakakakka...aq mw tul mkn cukulet..tp kan.,..bla pnt bwt choc cookies 2,cam mls sua mw mkn cuklet..
~pening eyh...tah..ngantuk kali..td mla2 bwt bskut bru la..sandy tul..cam pinar2 bha...lampu 2 kali...
~ok..skuwl x lma lae bka..aiyer...none of my hmewrk is dne,..none..i mean NONE!!uhuuuu,...it gves me a lot of stress jz 2 thnk of it..
~ive studied addm3 a lil..ehekz..ony chapt 1 to b exact..adeyh...ada jua la ckit2 chapt 2..hrmmm...
ssh la gne..i planned mw study suma sbject tem cti..tp ny jak yg dpt..aiyerr...bz plak smpai 26...26 famy day d rongolis...i dun know y...but i dun feel like going..it sounds like fun..but i jz thought there'll b mre "bad thngS" than fun..i mean..bkn la bha bad thng..tp i dun like 2 deal with org2 mabuk ny...tah...mls la...mls tah ku ingau...cewahh...gpun,mw smbyg g nty ssh..aiyerr...tekanan jiwa..but mayb,jz mayb...if he'll b there,i thnk i can handle it...muakakkaka...x arr...at least ada kwn..i mean,,,kwn yg sma kpla..undrstands me...n sma nsb...sikap..i mean,sal smbyg 2,,i thnk he'll b worried too if he's there with me..=p
~there's a lot of thngs going on with me these days,,,i jz dun know wat 2 tell..i mean...there's jz too mch..ok frst,ngan 1st bddy...cam x ok..tp i work it out,,so,kmi ok la sua..at least kmi kwn...n now we talk like da way frens should b too..tats wat i want it 2 b..so im happy with it...2nd bddy plak...i called him Mr.Chipsmore..ilham dr novel "Kau Kekasihku" karya anis ayuni...ehehhehe...x la...tul2 cam dya,.cz hlg2 jak...jap ada jap teda..bla ada 2.,,i mean,,lw kmi sms...pndai hlg tba2..aiyerr...sooooo dislike!! most of it,is when i mention about adri..uhuu...his jz jealous..i know it...3rd buddy plak..jarang plak cntc..mayb sal dya ada prob ma hp dya...ermm...mw ckp cdey,cam iya jua...cam no feel,,cam ya jua..adeyh..mls tah ku ingau..dya ada gf sua jua..i mean..i dun mnd psl 2..cma,kmi kan bestie.,..trasa la jua bla cam x btgur..tp i undrstand..dya pnya hp kan rsak..plus,i dun want 2 txt hm much..dun want 2 interfere his life..sap t kcau daun plak ma gurl dya kan..t kna blg lae aq prampas..adeyh...no3!!!!nmaw3!!!
~speaking of bestie...hurmm,..plik ckit ma fren stu 2..tp xpa..cntrol emosi joe..aq rsa aq yg tlbey slh sngka ny..ileks bha..pren2 kan..aiyer...npa la me ny like tis...muahahaha...ma yana plak,ahakz..ok..sap ada bcntc n siap jln lae..no prob la...ma tiyah...cam terkilan la jua...cewahh,,,bhs novel..sap kan...dya xda cntc pun dr cti..bru2 ny jak ada,...i mean,awl2 cti 2 ada la jua...uhuu...2 puwn,kira eppy la jua..bsyukur jua dya ada jua cntc..dya pkir duit bha 2...bkn salu dpt topup kan..so,mw pndai gna la..kan mhal sms p num fiey...uhuu...jz thnk POSITIVE!! tp kan..fiey nataw la..tiyah ny kan sinonim ma ika...so bla engt tiyah,msti trngt ika..mls tul bla engt ma ika 2..i mean,bkn fiey engt2 ika..tp pa yg ika bwt 2 bha...ada ka,fiey jln ma tiyah pun dya mw mrh,,,plg la tw..hellowww!!!who did he thnk i am???fiey mayb x p ckp ma dya,,,tp 2 psl fiey respect dya as tiyah's bf..also,tuk jga hti tiyah as his gf,...lw x,,awl lae fiey sipak ow..kin pns ny bha,.,.,im her bezfren la..so i dun thnk there's anythng wrng 4 me 2 go out with her..aiyak..wat kind of jealousy is tat..dislike!!!!suda 2,bkn stakat jln jak..tiyah sms ma fiey pun dya mrh..ada ka..aiyerr!! im a gurl la bro!!not a boy!!tah apa kes la mw jelz..teteda bha!!!
~k3...suda3...tlbey suda 2 mw mrh 2...wkwkwkwk...sory la ika n tiyah..mostly 2 tiyah..i jz cant help it..mrh tul ma ika 2..
~who else...ermm..ok..now..lets talk about hostel..i tld mum kan,..mumy plak mw tnya dady lae...n dady plak cam sgja lae mw kc lmbt2...aiyer...it makes me mad but msti mw sabar la..sabar kan sparuh drpd iman..gpun,,mw rush apa..sma jua pun..tem bka skuwl bru urus..oredy tnya tiyah..n she said ok..dya on jak..dya evn suh bwa result lae nty 3 ary bln..mw bwa tk jmpa ckgu sapitang...uhuu...
~pa lae mw crta arr??4got sua..ermm..
ow ya..ary 2,,gaduh lae mum n dad...ntah la sal apa..along pun ekt skali..along blg,mw jua dady bsg sal dya x ekt p tgk rmh jak..aiyer..nataw la sal apa dorg 2,,tp,cam sukati jak dorg ny bha..mw bwa org,tp kmi ny nataw apa bnda pun nhy bha..nsb bek adq mw hostel..uhuu...mls tah ku ingau...padulikan mereka...ekekek...
k arr..cam nataw sua pa mw crta..ahakz,,outz!

assalammua'laikum...
Fieyra..ngntuk lg pnakut
2.51 am..

Thursday, December 16, 2010

pisang hjau..

bismillahirahmanirahim..
assalammua'laikum..
17 Dec 2010..
10 Muharam 1432..(cewahh)
10.22 am..

Dear blog..
~~~i dun knoe pa mw ckap...wkkakakakaka..
ok3..engt sua..ystrday kan...yana n i went 2 kfc 2 meet ckgu ahjiam..mw kc tgk report 2..uhuu..byk kna komen..suda 2,mgantuk lae tem ckgu bckp..ahahahah *soooo unprofesional*..suda 2 tem bncg2 smpt lae rep2 msg..wkwkwkwkkwk
~~~after tat..mw tw pa kmi bwt???ekekekek...mkn kfc la bha..aiyakk....ckgu bg 10 rgt..
~~~then blk rmh..knuk yana mw smbyg..ehekz..tgk2 x jd..akkakaka..
~~~then!!! kmi p sikul..p amik mnantu mama angkat tsyg..wkakakaka...fnny plak 2 tw...malu la plak dya..akakaka..still remember evythng lke it was ystrday...(pdhal mmg ystrday pun) hahahaha....abz bha kna buli oley me n yana's mum..akakaka...cyan bha dya...jwb pun ckit2 jak..sora pun kcik aje..muahahahaahhahaha..then me n yana's mum p bli red paste..suda 2,kmi jln2..kc tyme tk yana n ibrahim..wkwkwk...fiey klucuan sua ow..skali tgk,DEIII!! mnda...behh!! dya sua mkn duluan..ma pren2 c ibrahim lae..aiyerr..
cyan me n yana's mum..sndry2 jak kmi mkn..suda 2,,ibrahim lae yg kc byr 2..cdey mum yana yg bdaulat 2..dya yg mw blnja,sua dya byr....ahhaha
~~2 jak arr dlu..byk mw crta..tp kna suh bwt cookies..ekeke..speaking sal cookies ny kan..suma mnta bha bla i tld them i bake cookies..adeyh..
~~ow ya...ary 2 chat ma adri..he gve me tips sal how 2 pikat boyszzz...pnya lcu..mw pcah my stomach sal tawa..adeyh..
~~~btw,,keja rmh byk x siap..frame lum siap..suma lum siap..adeyh..

k daaa...assalammua'laikum
fieyra...kna pggl2 sua..
10.35 am

Friday, December 10, 2010

tah...

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
assalammua'laikum..(cewahh)
3.17 am
11 Dec 2010
4 Muharam 1432

Dear,
~~ary ny kan..tekanan jak ow..npa 2 arr??isy...x bek!!3x...msti psl miss slt sbuh jak ny kan blk2,.ahhahaha... byk crta..tp nataw sua apa..aahahhaha..i've lost "ME"..da real me isnt like tis,.i used 2 b fun,,.unsensitive..criaaaaaa ajew..tp skrg,tekanaaaaannnnnn jak..aiyaaa....wats happening 2 me??is it one of da process of growing up??huhh!!

~~td kan..i ask dad 2 buy me choc..he said t dya kc bli..skali tem blk,teda pun..so i said..dady xda bli kan??hahhaha..tuz he said,alarrr.,..dady lpa sggah 7E td..me:jd kmu p mna td?? dad:maybank..d inanam..dady lpa plak mw snggh 7E td.. =.="" ahahahaha...cdey!...1 month suda ny x rsa choc...(ada la jua bha ckit2..ehehhee..)tp ckit jak..

~~ary 2 kan..fiey kan mw asrama knun ma fatiyah..then when i ask mum,dya x bg..then,fiey blk2 mnta..k skrg mum mc pkir,..dya mc mw bncg ma dad..uhuu...when mum said t dya bncg ma dad 2,tuz fiey cam ragu2 jak whether mw asrama or x..ahakz..i totally 4got y i was so eager 2 stay at da hostel..ahahha..not all of them la..cma cam lpa la..tuz cam tkt jak..ahahaha...so i ask la pren2 in fb,,.many of then said hme..sme say hostel..uhuu.,..siap ada debat lae arr..ahahaha..n now,,,after blk2 pkir,i thought,i chose hostel..x jua lma kan..4 1 year onny..jz 4 spm..uhuu...so,i thnk its ok la..but skrg mc tggu parents decision..uhuu...ofcourse,mw call fatiyah dlu..nataw g dya cmna kan..ahakz..myepi tul dya bha...rndu sua ma dya..ary2 engt dya..(sal engt asrama jak ary2 kan..2 arr..)ahhahaha....yana sms pun dya x rep..aq???i cant rmmber whether i dd txt her or not..ehhehee..=p =p =p tp post d fb dya ada la..ehehehe..

i thnk tats all 4 now la..ehekz..nataw g mw karang apa..
k daaa...nyti nyte..
assalammua'laikum..
Fieyra aka Adiq aka Nurul Syafira..
really wanna eat choc..

Monday, December 6, 2010

Mandi!!

Assalammua'laikum..
7 December 2010..
1 Muharam 1432h..(hehehehe...mhormati thn bru Islam bha..ahakz..)
1.01 am..(kali..)

Dear,,,
~~sia td kan..kw tw kan..saiya kan..saya..ermmm..apa suda 2 arr...sayaa...
hehehe..tda la..sa men2 jew..ary ny kan..Fiey p mandi sungai..ekkeke...kmi p LARRY & VINCE'S FARMSTAY...bez!!ada waterfall..buliy stay2 sna jua..i mean tdur sna...smat!kmi p sna p mndi2 jak puwn,.kmi p waterfall kcik..klaw yg bsr pnya jauh g mw jln..msti mw ekt trip dya..ada dlm package..(kali!!) biarpun kcik kan..tp ok la..bez jua..sjuk!!!~ lma2 borynk jua..tp then kmi jmpa activity..ahahha..kmi p tgkp knuk ikan yg ada sna..ahhaha...kmi mkn kropok bha 2..snacks!mmm...yummy! then my mom tah..accidentally tkasi jth kali kropok 2..then ada ikan2 dtg p mkn..ahahha...tuz sna la kmi p kc jatuh2 kropoks..siyok tgk ikan2 2 d tgh2 pelampung..cam akuarium..ahahhaa..skali ada ikan bsr,,ahhaha...karau joe triak..sakit leher..mw lari g ssh abz..tkutz!!ahhaha...then my dad dpt tgkp 1 fish..ahhaha..knuk mw bwa..skali tgk tlepas..aiyakk..rugi btul...then bla once again my dad n i pkai pelampung..i sat on it while my dad gayut sna jak..dya bg mkn ikan..ahaha..knun mw tgkp...skali ada cam kna gigit d blkg dya.,.ahahhahahahahha...LOL!so fnny lorh...
then they tlg me ada udang..ahhaha..tkutz jua la kna gigit cam dad..tp dr sna,i got da idea mw cri udang..ahhaha..bkn mw tgkp tul2 puwn..sja mw main..ahhahaa..mla2 nmpk yg kcik..skali dya lari..ahha..cyan..then nmpk yg bsr ckit...mla2 kcw dya lari...then fiey psg 2 tmpt biskut chipsmore sna..xda jua dya msk..then..i saw it under a rock..fiey engt mw kcw jak pkai kayu..skali tem2 push dya,dpt idea...sblh pgg tmpt biskut 2,sblh kayu..ahahha..when i push him again..dya lari p sblh..so tmasuk la p pat bskut 2..ahahahaa..I GOT IT!!I GOT IT!!! i got a shrimp!ekekeke..(tah btul tah x shrmp 2)..then my mum take a pic of tat shrmp..ahhaa..my dad knuk mw bwa blk..but my mum blg bkn jua bley hdp 2 d akuarium in our hse..gpun dya jak stu..cmna mw tmbh famy dya...wkwkkwk..plus,i felt pity on it..nataw dya tkt ka cdey ka apa..nataw dya ada ank..huhu..so i juz let it go,..cz mmg bkn tujuan asl mw bwa kan..sja jak mw tgkp..ehehhehe...msti dya tkt 2 kan?!eee...felt guilty plak..cyan dya..workers sna plak,ok!!suma frenly...bezsh!!dorg kc tawa fiey cz fiey smpt g p bgambar dkt swing..hahhaa..pdhal mw blk da.."smpt g posing arr" 2 org blg..ahahaha...fnny..he evn send us smpai gate lg..ahahahaa..

~ou ya..td d keta..crta sal yuran skul..mum suh p bli brg awl2..spaya x jua karau bla gna duit nty..sap xkan la suma stu kali mw gna..i mean each day ckit2..law bli truz suma skali,bankrap la kali..ahhahaha...then we talk about hostel..DO I REALLY WANT 2 STAY IN DA HOSTEL?? tis is a verrryyy serious n important decision..gtta make up my mind quick..mmg at frst aq mw tul..tp tah..byk mw pkir..isnt it?mw pkir g,will i stand it lvng in da hostel?wont i b afraid?can i handle myself there?can i really push myself tat hard?wat will happen 2 my parents n famy?can i leave them??will they evn let me go? (=p) wat happens if smthng happen 2 them while im in da hostel?? (na'uzubillahiminzalik) can i stand da pressure?
see..too many questions...smpai bley lpa g apa solan2 2..ahhaha..
mum said nty she discuss wit dad..uhuu..

~ok..taun ny krismas aka ary kuarga..kan salu ary kuarga smbut tem krismas..uhuu...thn ny bwt ny rongolis..tmpt c ally..ehhehe..theme colour 4 likaz famy tis year is green...uhuu..cmana la ny..dorg neth mw bwt bju..i dun know whch..mw bwt ka bli jew..better bli kan..cma i was lke confuse n erm...cam..x syok bha...'gelisah'..ya tats da word..cz kan..cam tis famy day,cam mre lke dorg mw smbut chrstmas..well,i dun really know whether Muslims kan celebrate it or not..coz,,i thnk its ok if we jz join them..i mean,we will onny b gathering,singing,dancing,having presents,eat,n have fun 2gether..there's nthng wrong with tat..we jz dun hve 2 follow them when they went 2 pray at da church rght..uhuu..dun knw la..t i check it frm da intrnt..ehhee..*broken*...

~ystrday was soooo fnny..Adri taught me reading comics..btul la..aiyaaa..ahahha...dya kc bca comic "sora no otoshimoto'..ahaha..kali la..lpa..ehhee..mla2 cam mls la jua..tp cam besz...cma kan,aiyaaa..astaghfirullahalazim..bhya tul comic dya..byk sensored pnya wo..gilerr..i mean bkn blue..aiyaa..2 dangerous thp dewa sua 2 lw blue..evn i dun wnt 2 read it..tp ny cma,bhaya la..hahaahaha..dun know hw 2 xplain..adri blg 'ecchi'..evn i dun know wat tat is..haahaha..
sowt2 ny bha..fnny lar...i read comic,adri watch anime..ahahaha..mla2 ngntuk tul..tp thn jew..skali dya tdur ny bha..cis!! so,i read it jak la..then ttdur dpn laptop..buliy2..ahahhaha..tuz off9 then tdur..ahhaha..bgn puwn lmbt..mizz subuh lg 2..aiyaaa...

~ny lgu stu yg bkin aching ny..byk kali sua i mizz subuh..bgn lmbt jak salu..aiyaa..cannot like tat wo..suda la im a gurl..bad habit ow 2..ahahha..x ley biar ny..then,skul lae 2..ahakz..mslh 2 tw...lw tbiasa,mati la law tem skul..ahahah..,MST CHANGE!!

k arr..t ada story i tell lg k..ehehhehehe...daa...
Assalammua'laikum...

Fieyra...cam snake,.tkupas2 jew..tukar kulit..akibat sunburn..
will write again..if im in da mood..
1.43 am (kali..ekt jam laptop..)

Saturday, December 4, 2010

da whisper of my heart...

assalammua'laikum..
12.41 am
05/12/2010

dear blog..
ehekz..xda arr..sja jak intro..
~~k...crta prtama...ttg ksedihan...lg2 ksedihan..2X! xda la laen..ahakz..but tis is my life..so wat?! i still appreciate it..cam lagu d'massive..."syukuri apa yg ada...hdp adalah anugerah.." hahaha...enterframe jap..erm..gne..td i ask mum psl mw msk asrama 2 lg..i ask whether they really gnna buy a hse or not..so she ask y?so i tld her la..law x jd..i wnna stay in da hostel,if i may..jd dya tnya la knp mw hostel..i tld her cam lg bgs d hostel..plus..tiyah mw msk..but xda kwn dya...then tw pa she said..dya blg npa lg mw asrama..result kw 2 kalah lg dgn skul besa..alalarh..cam cdey ny bha truz...i know tat she's still not satisfied wit my result...tats y i kept thnkn bout it..im thankful wit wat i get..evnthough im not satisfied but im stll thankful..but wat mum feels n said makes me feel,like...sort of...sad..or offensed..or dissatisfied..aiyak..cant express it..i tried u know..but i stll rmmber how unconfident i am tat time..felt lke x sdp jak..cam x ley bljr lg..lw bljr pun,x msk kpla..aiyaaaa....tension wo..i want 2 tell my aunt...which is close 2 me..but i cant..i juz cant..cz mum wont let me..she said she dun want people 2 thnk tat she's not a good mther..an unresponsible mther when she oredy tried 2 do her best on taking care of us..
I KNOW TAT!!I KNOW!!she did tried..n i also dun wnt people 2 thnk about her tat way..but i was jz sad n devastated when she talks 2 me tat way n when she talks about my result..it hurts a LOT!i wnna let it out but i jz cant..ARGHH!!!!
----------but now tat i edy let it go..its kinda okay oredy..hehehhe...(if u read tis,dun tell any1 k..n dun thnk about my mum in a ngtive way..she did her best..mayb i misjudge her..aiyow..pls..im bggng u..)
~~k...next stry..sdey lg..ahakz..lke tis bha..1st bddy n clse fren named blablabla,treat me like smekind of trash or smthng..its lke,dorg pakat tuk kc kna fiey..huhuuuu..so sad la td,...truz hlg mud ny bha...tats y tuz write blog..ehekz..=p
++++++ ow ya..lma sua x write blog kan..ehehhe..sury la blog..cam xda mud bha mw mnaip..tp bla cdey ny ada mud plak kan...ahahha..sowt..
~~ok..next story..i did it..i said i wanna cook kan tem cti..yeay!!mmg i wosh dpt msk bbur kcg puwn dr ary 2..so kmarin i did it!!hahahaha..biarpun hangus n ckit x jd,..tp its a success..jd jua bha..ehekz..biarpun bkn new recipe,tp xpa la..asl msk..ehehhe..
~~k..u know..im now working on a handmade frame..ahakz...hopefully jd la as i plan it 2 b..ahaha..mla2 mw bg 2nd bddy..tp bla x dpt pkir wat 2 gve mummy,so i jz make 1 4 mummy as well..ehhehe....mum pnya mw jd da..ckit g..tggl hias n ltak pyangga d blkg dya 2,..hehehe..lma btul ny bha mw bwt.. tangguh jak..ahakz..
~~1 mre..ary 2 i text wit 3rd bddy..ok..shockingly,dya x penah btaw puwn gf dya yg kmi mc bmsg..x ka gila 2??aiyaaa...dangerous wo...then,i said..nmaw la kwn kw suda..ehekz..coz i dun want his gf 2 get jealous and do smthng..i mean,mayb she'll b mad at 3rd buddy n break up with him or smthng..ahakz..tuz 3rd bddy blg..kw pun nmw kwn aq da??k la..aq btaw la dya..ahhaha..funny lorh...i btaw lerr...bkn nmaw kwn..jz nmw cntc coz tkt gf dya mrh..ehhe..i said,i edy promise 2 b his fren no matter wat kan..KMI KAN KAMCENG!!ahahha..2 la yg salu kmi ckp law sma2..ahhaha..bez bhu..his my bestie n im his bestie..wkwkwk...tiyah n yana..dun get jelez..u guys r still my bloved bezfrenz..ehehhe..byk la kmi ckp..but yg pntg..we will stll b fren..ahhaha...4 real..kmi kwn je lorh..x jua mw lbih...ehehhe...
~~aiyaaaa...mc byk story wo..tp lpa da..ahahha..
ouw ya...ary 2 i chat wit cuzzy..wkwkwkk..kmi crta sal alat muzik yg kmi ska..i said i like guitar..love it so mch..evnthough i dun know how 2 play...ahahaha...wnna learn it though..smeday...dya plak..he said he likes piano..ahaha..tis is a tips 4 anybdy who has a crush on him..ahahhaa...HE LIKES PIANO..wkwkwkk...so,frm tat day..kmi blk2 tag lagu yg ada gna instrument yg kmi ska..ahhaha...aq jak actually..dya tem kmi chat 2 jak..aftr tat x sua...ahahahha...tats when i thnk he gets annoyed...ahhahaha..its suit my prof name..--Fieyra aNoying gUrlz--hahahaha..
~~~i jz gotta stop ddnt i?hahaha...ok bha bla org annoyed ma kta..x jua dorg mw kcw kta jak..ahahhaa...jz kddng..

k arr..im done..pnt da..ahaha...(tkt actually)
ahahahaha...k3..
assalammua'laikum...
Fieyra..loves choc..
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