i dun know when...

tp start jak dya tnjukkan sifat caring dya 2,tats when i started falling in lve with hm...

~i thnk i fall 4 hm...fuhh...

dangerous..

~but now,,felt lke i lost smthng...i lose him...

regret???dun know...mayb..

but nxt tme,,i should appreciate people more...

rght??

~xpa la...mayb smday,there will b sme1 btter than him waitng 4 me..=P

its owkaey....evythng happens 4 a reason...ada hikmah jua ny...

s0...sabar k fieyra...

lesson 4 tis case....APPRECIATE THINGS IN UR LIFE...APPRECIATE THOSE AROUND U..UR FAMY,FRENZ...EVYBDY N EVYTHNG....

InsyaAllah..by Maher Zain...

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That you're so alone
All you see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go
Don’t despair and never lose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x2
Insha Allah you’ll find your way
Insha Allah x2
Insha Allah you’ll find your way

Everytime you commit one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that it's way too late
You’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame
Don’t despair and never lose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x2
Insha Allah you’ll find your way
Insha Allah x2
Insha Allah you’ll find your way
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com

Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one who could show me the way,
Show me the way x3

Insha Allah x2
Insha Allah we’ll find our way

Insha Allah x2
Insha Allah we’ll find our way

Insha Allah x2
Insha Allah we’ll find our way

Insha Allah x2
Insha Allah we’ll find our way

Insha Allah x2
Insha Allah we’ll find our way

Insha Allah x2
Insha Allah we’ll find our way

~~~Amin...

Jesse McCartney - Leavin' (LYRICS)

NO stress3x!!!

(eeeee.....taw ka???
tat gossip is totally WRONG!!!
WRONG!!WRONG!!WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!
MAN!!! pa ny??tba2 knuk aq ma hisyam...gila ka??!!!!!
pnya kin tekanan!!!!!spa yg p sebar 2 CNFRM gila!
eeee!!!cam aq mw telan jak org yg pndai2 bwt crta 2..
DIE LAAAA!!!!!!!!!!
INSAF LA GENK!!! p skola!!bljr!!!!)

wat i post in FB...sap i found out crta org thnks i like hisyam 2 tsebar...

so mad!!!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

Assalammua'laikum,..

12.28 am

1 Feb 2011

27 Safar 1432..(kali)

Dear..

tday....im hurt again....

wanna know what he replied??

"blablabla...aq tw smuanya,cukuplha 2,aq pnt uda dgr omong kosong kmu,huhuhu"

hmmm....hurts joe,....sbar jak la...tz i cried dr pas bca smpai abs slt,..huhu...

Ya Allah,.,.smga aq mmpu btahan...AMIN...

smlm...on9 smbl dgr lgu dr blog...tdur dpn laptop...smpai jam 2 lbey...tbgn...smbg g on9...tz jam 3 smthg tdur...tz jam 7 yana call...kc bgn..ahahahaha...smbg g on9..then p mndi n tz p rmh yana...d rmh yana,feeling lg...adeyh...iz psg lgu cdey...adeyh....tz tdur smbl crying...='(

after tat,jam 11 p skul....jmpa ckgu ahjiam jap....ngantuk gila lg 2..ahhahhaha...boley2 tsengguk2 tyme bdiri..AHAHAHAHAHAHA....

then p servay,bli brg jap...tz blk g p skul...hias kelas...tz p tasik...JOGING!!exercise....siyooookkkk!!!! aunty Shah mmg rock la..cool...rugged yaw!ahahhaaha

then,,i sat d tngga...tgk lake 2 n da fishes...='( so sadddd....tem2 rest 2,,cdey mdtg...=pp

tp thn....but tld shar la..ehehehe...hp abs bateri lg 2...tpksa pnjm yana...adeyh..

tz blk rmh 6 lbey...kin tkt sua mka mamy...ahaahahahaha.....tp bwt rilek jak..uhuu..then,tz p laptop...on fb....tz nmpk msg 2..uhuuu....sooo hard...dun know y...my heart keeps breaking into tiny million pieces...jz afraid tat i mght get crazy...\

tats all la 4 tday...ahakz...

jz wanna say...i was really10x hurt bla dya ckp gne ma aq..bla dya bwt aq gne...dya ckp dya mc syg...tp gne ka cra org syg???mna sua smua janji dya??bhu!!janji palsu...manisan mlut...

though...i still lve him...as in 'syg'...bkn cnta...

k Assalammua'laikum...

Fieyra...hurtz...

1.02 am

so, if i'm not good enough, why don't you just find other girls?
but if i'm the best, why should you find other chicks?

about Hisyam....

admire his spirit..
jealous with his intelligence,hardworking,piety..
also 2 his characters...
everytme i see him,
it gves me da feeling of wanting 2 win n dun wanna lose...
its lke pushing me 2 hard to defeat him...b btter than him...
but,also da feeling of hatred tat caused by jealousy n his cockiness/boastfulness...


tats wat i thought of Hisyam Hussin...

not da other way....
not tat i lke/lve him..
i only lyke him as a frend..
n was jz admiring...amazed...
he was my idol...
tats all...

TAWWO???

y?y?y?

aq ka yg jht arr??
aq ka yg slh??
tp lw aq slh,,apa yg aq slh 2??
i wanna know...

skt nya dya ckp aq g2...
cam aq ny hina tul jak..
hina ka aq???

btaw aq...apa yg aq slh??
n,yayah btaw dya aq buli dya ka??
bla msa aq buli yayah??
x penah pun..
x penah la plak aq buli ssepa taw...

npa cam ny sua ny????

mean!!!!meanest!!!

"bwt pa kw mw tw?bkn hal kw pun ne hal kme dua,cukup lha jga hal kme 2, an jgn ganggu yayah lge,aq tdk mw dgr ada form 5 buli dya,ne bru aq kapel sdh mw heboh npa ndk kw kc heboh yg kw anggp dri kw 2 playgurl,npa kmu tak ckp ma pngetua lge yg aq uda kapel,aslam-azlan masri"

tis is wat he replied me through yayah's profile..
i was jz asking 1 question...

"bla lg kmu kapel?"

tz dya jwb g2..
yea!rght!! if tat is who i am 2 him,,then tats wat i am...

IT HURTS!!!

Ya Allah..kuatkan lah semangatku...tabahkanlah hatiku...smoga aku mampu mnempuh sgala dugaan & ujianmu Ya Allah...tingkatkanlah kesabaranku..smga aku sntiasa mgingatimu x kira ssh atau sng Ya Allah....berkatilah hidupku Ya Allah..smoga aku dpt mcapai cita-cita dan matlamatku dengan rahmat dan berkatmu Ya Allah.AMIN ya rabbal a'lamin...

miss..

misss u...
dun know y..

wanna stop thnking bout u...
but i jz cant..

miss ur teddy bear...
my ony fren,,,bkin kwn tdur..
now tat its back 2 u,....
i dun hve any other anymre..
ive lost it..
n i really miss it...
kept rmmbering how it sleep beside me or on my chest..
how i hug n kiss it..
waaaaaa!!!!!!!!

mish u teddy bear!!!
& mish U too...Mr.Invisible...

x akan aq menyerah..
x akan aq kalah..
x akan aq putus asa..

akan aq berusaha..
akan aq lawan..
akan aq terus berjuang..
akan aq berubah..
akan aq berpegang pada ikrar...

the world will see..
success will be in my hand!!

strive 4 SPM!!!!

10A+++++

IM COMING!!!

10A++++++++++

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Assalammua'laikum..
10.57 am..
29 Jan 2011
24 Safar 1432

smoga berkat apa yg aq doa ny,.,,.amin..

Dear,,

Td kan...I open mukabuku...tz,,nmpk status c hisyam...he said :

SPM!!!!!!!!!!!!
10A+!!!!!!!!!!
I'M ON MY WAY!!!!!
yeaaaah...ooooohhhh.....

GERAMNYAAAAAAAAA!!!!!
aq tul2222222 rsa tcabar!!!

xpa..if he can get 10A+... then we'll (me,tiyah n yana) get 10A+++++!!!!!!
YEAH!!! U'LL SEE!!! WORLD WLL SEE!!!

I'LL SUCCEED!!!!!!!!!

InsyaAllah...biiznillah...
smoga Allah mmakbulkan...& mengizinkan...
Amin...

Fieyra...
11.16 am

hme!!!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Assalammua'laikum...

3.45 pm..

28 Jan 2011

tah brp Safar 1432..

Dear....

Im HOME!!!!!

no feel pn actually..ahakz...cma pkir mw mkn jak bla blk..ahhahahaa

tday...i hve jz found out psl 1st bddy,...

CANTEKKK!!!!

gurl dya sndry p mgaku lae 2...cam sgja jak..uhuu...tp pdli la...watever....whether btul or x,,doesnt matter....ive edy bg blk tat teddy bear...WAAAA!!! though i lve tat teddy bear s00 mch...dun know y..aq jz nmw smpan g....t aq trngt2 dya n bharap ma dya ka or apa2 la....i jz want 2 avoid all tat..

walao!!!mla2 SHOCK genk...evn bla aq btaw vilen n tiyah pun...dorg pn ttriak...so KIK!

tp aq cam ntaw mw rsa apa tem 2...aq jz,,shock!ttba jak..ahakz..tp aq sua agak pn actually,...=pp

then aq cdey ckit..tz tem bca Yasin...aq bdoa...aq crta ma Allah...aq mnta ktngn....tz aq tnangis tem bca Yasin 2.....uhuu.....sbr la wahai hati.....

then aftr tat,aq cdey jak d klaz..got no focus genk! so stupid!

tem rehat,aq brg d krusi..tz guru dtg..dya ckp,sjak msk asrama nhy,,pndai sua tdur d klaz..ahakz...tah cmna guru nmpk..tp aq actually mlayan cdey jak pun...lyn mud...

smpai la tem blk..bla sua bg savilen 2 teddy bear,tz rsa ok ckit..whch i thought i was....i jz kept smiling jak tem blk td...smpai tem d rmh...but, bla aq crta ma c shar,,tz cdey blk..aiyer...apa khbr la tddy bear 2 arr??wuwuuuu..

skrg...no buddiez anymre...each 1 of them wre oredy out of da list..so da list are empty...jd,da list has gne la sua jua..=pppp

sbr itu sparuh drpd iman..

2 jak arr 4 tday,,..lyn pnt lu...=ppp

Assalammua'laikum..

Fieyra....dun know la feel apa skrg...

4.00 pm...

byebye...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Assalammua'laikum..

8.17 am

16 January 2011

tah brp Safar 1432

Dear,,

today me msk ostel..

nataw g jam brp arr..mayb ptg...

tp ada clat lae jap at 9..

cdey la mw c tggl dorg...

really??

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Assalammua'laikum

10.07 pm

14 Jan 2011

tah brp Safar 1432

Dear,,,(Chewwah!)

~~im DEPRESSED!!!ntah la...cam tekanan ny bha....aq ntw cmna mw komen sal life ny..its really,,,unpredictable..hurm...

~~mayb i should keep away frm hm..i mean,not 2 get too close 2 him...hurm..

~~ntah la..cam x brp rsa sal asrama ny..asyik rsau sal brg lum bli n sal money jew...mayb sal 2 arr x brp rsa sal bnda len sua..uhuu..problem...cam besa...in lfe..nver ends...

~~td tem packing bru rasa, "ee..mw msk asrama plak kan...real ka jua ny?" uhuu..

~~sal 1st bddy..errmmmm...ntah la...rpanya dya bwa hp..uhuu...tat makes me sme1 stupid...==!!! dya mrh aq ka arr???sap on da frst day of skul 2 kan dya cam mw jmpa...tp ckgu lmbt kuar..so lmbt arr blk..so,x jd..then lpas 2,dya lgsg x tgur..hurmm....rpanya dya ada crta jua ma savilen...tp dya x suh savilen btaw....isy...bnci!!!

sedih..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Assalammua'laikum..

7.01 pm

10 Janury 2011

tah brp Safar 1432..

~~Im still cdey,..,.dya x jua tgur2...xpa arr...sasak tul ow...stiap tmpt me p,sna la dya ada..adeyh..pgawas famous ow dya ny...uhuu...pa la jua bnding me ny....

~~kapten aspuri = farahlisa

pnolong kapten aspuri = jebeth joy

~~kapten aspura = anansor

pnolong kapten aspura = carlvister

~sabtu ny msk da..wuwuuu....mmg la aq mwwwww tul msk..tp cdey mw c tggl rmh...uhuu...no matter how bad my famy arr...they r still mine..ony 1..uhuu...lope ya!!!

Assalammua'laikum...

Fieyra aka Adiq..

7.06 pm..

A.P.I ~ Pelita

Tak pernah sesaat daku meragui
apa yang telah daku temui
selama ini,

Tak pernah sesaat daku menyesali
apa yang telah aku nikmati
apa ku alami

selagi hayat di kandung badan

Takkan ku menyerah kalah
walau mimpi ku musnah
harapan ku hancur
sayapku patah

akan ku pancarkan cahaya,
seperti pelita ke serata dunia,
yang gelap gelita

sehingga hembusan nafas
yang terakhir

tak pernah sesaat ku mencurigai
apa yg telah aku kecapi
setakat ini

tiba saatnya kan ku tangisi
pada yang pergi, takkan kembali
Kembali lagi

selagi hayat di kandung badan

Takkan ku menyerah kalah
walau mimpi ku musnah
harapan ku hancur
sayapku patah

akan ku pancarkan cahaya
seperti pelita ke serata dunia
yang gelap gelita

sehingga hembusan nafas
yang terakhir

Selagi jasadku belum terkubur!
Selagi tubuhku, belum ditimpa uzur!
pantang datuk nenek moyangku,
Berundur!

Chorus 2X
Takkan ku menyerah kalah
walau mimpi ku musnah
harapan ku hancur
sayapku patah

akan ku pancarkan cahaya
seperti pelita ke serata dunia
yang gelap gelita

sehingga hembusan nafas
yang terakhir

Akan Ku Pancar Cahaya Seperti Pelita
Ke Serata Dunia
Seperti Cahaya…….

X AKAN KU MENYERAH KALAH!!!!

patut la I sensitif kblkgn eny...
muahahhhaha..adeyh...
wiy..aq msk asrama sua sabtu mggu dpn..
cmna nyyyyy???
me TAKOOOUUUTTTTTZZZZZ!!!!!!
cdey yaw....im gnna leave my famy...
waaaaa!!!!!!!!!

2 my famy...i will love u all awayz...
no matter how mad i am 2 yallz..no matter how bad n hard da circumstances tat we're facing,,i still love yall...gnna miss yall awayz...='(
dun 4get me k pas me msk h0stel..pray 4 me awayz..=pp

dlu kw janji,,,kw kwn jua ma aq...no matter what...

n aq pgg tul2 jnji kw..tgk skrg..bkn jua kw pdli..

mayb,,aq die skalipun kw x pdli kali...

sua aq ckp..dr awl lae...bwt pa la mw bwt janji..skrg sndri x bwt..

ckp x srupa bikin..

aq,..janji ny cam sgt pntg..mna bley bwt ssuka hati...xda makna la janji 2..

i edy btaw jan bwt janji.,...tgk skrg...dya bwt janji..n aq pgg...tp dya sndry x tnaikan..

pa ny???

N'Sync~~I Drive Myself Crazy

Ohhh..oh...
Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you

How I'm missing you so bad
Where was my head?
Where was my heart?
Now I cry alone in the dark

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake
When I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do (Wanting you the way that I do)

I was such a fool
I couldn't see it
Just how good you were to me

You confessed your love
Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free
And now I'm left
With all this pain
I only got myself to blame
ohhhhhhhhhhhh

(chorus)

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake
When I let you go baby (Let you go)
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do (Wanting you the way that I do)

Why didn't I know
(How much I loved you baby)
Why couldn't I show it
(If I had only told you)
When I had the chance
Oh I had the chance

(interlude)

Ohhhhhhh lalalalalalala
Lalala I drive myself crazy
Oh oh oh ohhhh(Oh so crazy)
lalalala oh oh oh ohhhh

(chorus)

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy
I drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake (made a mistake)
Let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy (I drive, myself crazy, crazy, crazy...yeah)
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake
Let you go baby

I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do...

nanar...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Assalammua'laikum...

7 January 2011

tah brp Muharam 1432

1.51 pm

Dear blogs...n frenzz...

Tday...me cam xda muuuuudddd jak....mw mkn pun xda slera sua...

u knoe?? start dr bka skul,,fiey xda skali pun btgur ma 1st bddy...dya pun,asl blmpas,,cam x penah knl jak...actually,fiey pun nataw npa fiey rsa g2...ermm...mmg la fiey salu arap dya x salu mw dkt2...wat i meant is,fiey x mw lbey2 bha...fiey mw kwn jak..fiey mw cam dlu...skrg ny,bkn lae x rpat...tp cam x penah knl ny bha..kalah2 bha cam ma dak frm 4..

gila tul...tah npa fiey cam ny...WAAAAAAA!!!!!!!! cam nanar sua ny...NANARRRR!!!!!! TENSIONN!!!!! mw gila sua ny...aiyowww.....

i dun know sua mw ngadu ma chepa ny...lam blog jak la lae tggl...cyan kw blog tpksa dgr smua ny...bnda2 kcil..stakat nonsense..pun aq mw heboh...kecoh la minah ny,...

x tng aty me pkir ny jak since bka skul..adeyh...

at frst...engt sgja..sap nmw org ckp2 lae....so biar jak la...tp bla sua brp ary g2,len la bha jua rsa.,..aiyerr...ssh mw explain..cz,,me sndry dun undrstand situation skrg neyh..

n td on da way hme pun,fiey pkir sal dya..fiey pkir,,i thnk fiey syg dya..tp fiey blum sdia la brg couple2 ny...4 me,bwt pa jua kapel..lw stakat frenz jak pun sma jak jua kan...tp dya pun x ley trma suma 2..dya nmw stakat fren..adeyh...

n asal engt dya,msti sesak nafas...cam laju tz me bnafas.....sakit dada,,

ary 2,last year tem jamuan,kmi ada bgmbr...n bzfren fiey ada kc cci 2 pic...bley2 la..skrg fiey tgk pic jew..ary 2,,tlmpau pkir sal dya,x dpt tdur..tz rsa mw tgk pic,...so after tgk pic,then tdur....

haiy haty...apa la ubat dya.. =(

assalammua'laikum...

Fieyra...sdg sad....

2.04 pm..